I could be dying from the one thing that i've always loved the most... the sun! biopsy next friday. it makes me think that all my theories on capitalism and an inevitable social uprising is banal. millions, no billions (trillions) of people have died before me for no reason... sure maybe the ones who claim some self-righteous power greater than the individual would say that their deaths have come at the expense of the greater good, but that is an obvious facade. someone wrote in a secret memo once that the only thing that separates the rich from the poor is money since the poor still have a vote. its not true. there is no real separation. we all die. it is arbitrary and erroneous to assume an individual can mean anything in the greater scheme of things. we are all fucked